[ An idle mind certainly hadn't helped her over the course of the last few weeks. The want had just grown stronger with each day, so perhaps it was a dangerous thing. It made her miss him too much.
Certainly, it has her soaking up the attention when he kisses her again, his hands pulling her shirt out from where it's been tucked and skimming his fingers across her skin. A noise of appreciation is muffled against his mouth and when he finally rolls his hips to hers, there's a low throbbing heat in her stomach.
Her own fingers slide to find the buttons on his shirt, undoing them and eagerly yanking the cloth up, one palm laying flat on his chest. She pulls away from the kiss long enough to give him a gentle nudge with said hand. ]
Bed, now. [ Her patience has frayed; no longer interested in pretending she can wait. ]
[ he drinks in the noise when she makes it, breathing in the sounds of her wanting him. it’s impossible, thinking that it might be true, but equally impossible imagining a life without it. he slides his hands across the expanse of skin he can reach and all he wants is more. more of her, more of this. kaz can’t focus too much on how long it’s been since he’s last seen her, or how many nights he lay awake with only thoughts of her.
she pushes him away and he tugs on her lips when they separate, not quite ready to lose this touch. to let this stop. her palm is flat against his chest and she can probably feel the speed his heart is moving, the erratic thumping against his ribcage.
bed, now she says, and there’s a fire under his skin. an electric current that courses out to every inch of him. he leans back, ignoring how the shifting weight makes his leg ache, and let’s out a breath - a sigh, not of relief but of acceptance. ]
You’ve grown impatient. [ it’s teasing, of course, his voice a low gravel as he slides his open vest and shirt off his shoulders and let’s them crumple to the floor, before reaching back towards her to grab at her waist, pulling her away from the windowsill and with him across the room. ]
[ His touch feels so good, so welcome after too long. It's not enough to have it against that portion of her back, so when he obliges her and steps towards the bed, she happily goes with him. It's even better now that he's shed his shirt and vest and she unabashedly takes in the sight, eyes following the sinuous line of his back. ]
My hand and a pillow are poor replacements. [ Yes that means exactly what you think, Kaz. She only pauses her steps to pull her top off, dropping the garment on the floor to join his. A flick of her wrist and the binder she wears is undone, falling to her feet and leaving her just as bare as he is on top. Once she kicks her shoes off, she sidles in closer again, smoothing her hands down his sides greedily. Leaning up, she kisses his neck briefly, pulling away with a scrape of teeth. ]
If you say you aren't just the same, I'm calling you a liar.
[ not that is an image that kaz will return to at a later date. when the months get longer and this new version of himself, the one that doesn't grow ill at the mere thought of another person's skin, needs something to replace the lack of her beside him. he moves towards the bed and turns when he reaches it, grinning as he falls to sit on its edge. ]
But I am a liar. And a thief. [ kaz's brow arches, still a bit playful in his good mood, as he reaches and pulls her closer to him, between his knees. he let's himself have another moment to take her in, the naked expanse of her before him, the soft warmth of her skin under his hands. there's still an inch to the back of his brain, then, a curling of emotion - but that is now want, hunger, desire. not the nauseating mixture of self-disgust he carried with him for years.
he presses a kiss to her collar bone, then another below, his hands running up her thighs. ] What did you think about, with your hand and a pillow? [ he looks up at her through dark lashes, setting another kiss below her collarbone and above her heart, then a third further down her chest. ]
No excuses. [ Besides, she would much rather the thief than the liar right now, especially if he'll be stealing her away. Or at least putting those quick fingers of his to more use than ties on a vest.
With that in mind, she steps between his legs without a second thought, liking the change of height. It's easier to study his face like this, catalogue the difference in the arch of his brow, how his eyes have gone dark—but not bitter. She makes a pleased little noise when he slides his hands up her legs, a shiver running its way up her spine.
Combing her fingers through his hair, she gently scratches down the back of his neck, nails pressing in just enough to leave quick fading depressions as she gets to his shoulders. Later, she thinks she'll leave a mark, something only she'll see. ]
I wanted to sit across your hips and have you take me. Or to wake you with my hand around your cock. [ That was the least of it. Her expression softens and she traces a finger along his collarbone. ] Mostly, how much I wanted to hold you.
[ his fingers skitter across her thighs, as if a promise of things to come. of what things could come, depending on the night. her fingers thread back through his hair and scratch across the back of his neck and he lets out a breath, tightening his grip on her. as if to make sure to keep her here.
kaz wants her to mark him, but that isn't abnormal. especially with her schedule, he likes the reminders she did come back - whether for him, or the city, or anything else. ]
That could be arranged. [ a smirk, a look up through his eyelashes. catching his eyes, before kissing her chest again, and then down again, before wrapping around his mouth around the peak of her breast. ]
[ Before they'd worked through more of their past hurdles, she didn't like being pulled in so tightly. Didn't like the feeling of fingers grabbing at her body, too reminded of greedy men's hands from the Menagerie.
Now though, she feels nothing but a thrill when Kaz's fingers tighten on her thighs. It's not enough to bruise, not yet, but the pressure is welcome. She's about to ask him to move them higher, to the vee of her legs, panties starting to go damp from so little touch after so long. He ducks his head though, all mischief when his mouth closes on her chest, and she forgets any words she'd been about to say. ]
Good boy. [ Is what comes out instead, syllables mixed in with a gasp. One hand settles at the back of his neck, as if to keep him there. The other drops down, nails gently scraping down his chest. ]
[ if this were before, there would have been miles and miles to wade through. kaz would never have allowed himself to get to this point, to allow himself to feel this much, and definitely not in a way he could show to inej. and that wasn't even taking into account where the gloves lay on the other side of the room, in how easy it feels to just be hear her, skin on skin.
before, there would have been nothing kaz could have given her in this moment. simply being near her had driven him insane, and now he honestly, truly, can't get enough of her.
he swirls his tongue around her, kissing and sucking at the peak he has in his mouth. at the good boy, kaz actually feels something like electricity shoot down his spine, just enough to have him dig his nails into the skin of her thigh. not too hard, not enough to mark, but to show intent. intent for something more. ]
[ Sometimes, she wants to curse him for his mouth. He'd been quick to pick up how she liked to be touched, where she wanted to be kissed, and had applied his silver tongue or lockpick hands to the cause. Right now is no different, the heat of his mouth sending a warm throb through her whole body.
While enjoyable, it's not strictly fair. She wants more and she thinks the grip on her thighs tells the same story. The hand on his chest pushes again this time, aiming to get him back on the bed. She'll follow him onto it after she undoes her pants and pulls them down, haphazardly kicking them onto the floor. Clad only in her underwear, she settles across his lap, letting her warmth bleed through his trousers.
Leaning forward, she presses an affectionate kiss to his cheek. ]
Moving too slow. [ She says as she slides her hands down his front, fingers mapping out all his familiar sharp angles. One strays between his legs, her palm setting lightly enough to tease. ]
[ she is more than welcome to curse him however she wants. she can hiss, she can shove him away, she can tell him all the ways she wants to pull him apart. he would let her. he would love for her to.
inej’s hand presses to his chest, and kaz falls back with it. watching, as much as he can from this angle. and then as she climbs back across his lap and he resettles, just enough to shift the pressure off his bad leg, and he can feel her through the linen of his pants. ]
Impatient? [ he says with a chuckle, maybe a bit too confident, as his hands settle back on her waist. her palm settles teasingly against him, and kaz’s hips jerk towards her. ]
[ He looks good like this, she thinks, all laid out before her. All eager and willing to have her so close; each time she's reminded of how far they've come. And so many times she feels the burn of impatience, the months away at sea catching up all at once.
His hands settle on her waist and she presses her palm down gently when his hips arch up, giving him what he wants. Well, for now. Though she can't deny feeling him hardening under her hand is a one sided pleasure. She moves said hand, shifting up to settle across his hips, making it easier for her to lean down to kiss his neck. ]
A little. [ Inej murmurs it, amused, against the hollow of his throat. She kisses a line down, soft presses of her mouth to his chest. With a slow roll of her hips, she mimics his earlier motion, letting out a satisfied sound. ]
[ that is a big part of it, isn't it. the time spent waiting to get here. the time spent before, where the briefest thought of having inej like this, of knowing that in the following moments he will be that much closer to her, would have had him retching. not because of inej, some part of him has always wanted her, but in general. a time where the thought of skin on skin, of anyone touching him had been a pressure he couldn't stand.
now, he can't get enough of it. now, he spends each moment he's forced to spend away from her, thinking of just this. he loves the warmth in how his hands settle on her lips, adores the simple weight of her over him, of her palm pressing down. kaz hisses, but it's through a small grin, as he leans his head back and lets her have free reign of his neck. he meets the slow roll of her hips, pushing them both up off the bed if only for the friction.
kaz needs more than this, they both know that, but he also knows how much inej enjoys slowly pulling that out of him. so instead of saying it, kaz instead lets go with one of his hands too, reaching down to run across her, putting his fingers to use. ]
[ His grin, while near cheeky, is good to see. She's gotten used to his reactions, cataloguing all the little things that tell her when he's okay or when he's shaken, when he needs space. Right now, he's open and wanting, that knife sharp crook of his mouth telling her to keep going. She drags her nails down his chest, stopping to tweak both of his nipples, rolling her thumbs across them. It's a brief touch, one that continues down again, following the indents of his ribs and the dip of his stomach.
Of course, he distracts her with his own touch, clever fingers running across her skin. Inej sways towards the contact, eager for more. Her hips shift against him again, the jut of his erection pressing between her legs enough to be a tease. She shifts her weight enough to undo the front of his pants, tugging the waistband down his hips. ]
[ then she should be able to tell that tonight will be a good night. inej is right, to always be looking out for him. bad days sneak up from the shadows of the slat when he least expects it, and the dirtyhands rumors will start up once more. but they are few and far between, and right now, in this room, the last thing he's worrying about is that.
instead, he wants quite the opposite. wants inej's hands across his chest, pulling a hiss from him as his back arches, up into her nails, her fingers on his chest. everywhere she touches is fire, a good fire, one he chases after where he can. ]
Inej... [ his voice is low, gravelly, heavy with want and impatient. with a dangerous crick of a tone. don't keep me waiting. she'll know he doesn't mean anything by it, it's been far too long since kaz any authority of inej, she pulls down the waistband of his pants and he lets out a laugh.
there's just enough time for him to reach up and press a palm to her, running his fingers between her legs. to lean forward and press his lips to her shoulder. he just wants to feel her, at this point, any way he can. ]
[ Maybe once before, she would've felt the full impact of his impatience. She would have done something about it, their footing still so unsure in those early days. But now she simply smiles at the edge of his tone, knowing exactly what it means. Authoritative without the authority– if she didn't know better, she'd say it was petulant.
Except it cracks in the next moment, his raspy laugh filling the space between them. The sound warms her from the inside out, knowing she's one of the few who's heard it, genuinely. And well, maybe his touch helps, clever fingers finding their way between her legs, mouth to her shoulder. She hums at both, though her hips push down just a bit, savoring the pressure.
Too bad she isn't one to get distracted from her goals, no matter how much she wants something in the moment. Though she makes it a brief departure as she tugs his pants down and off, wanting just as much as him to touch. When she resettles, she pulls him in for a deeper kiss, both of her palms pressed flat against his chest. ]
Can I help you? [ The words are murmured against his lips, the light and teasing tone discolored by how obvious her want is. ]
[ petulant. inej is the only person in all of ketterdam who would dare to think as much. the only person who would be safe enough to do so. and she knows it, which is half the reason why. inej moves under his hands, pressing more firmly into his palm, and he presses back to her in kind.
inej is the stronger person here (in more ways than one) when she pulls them apart. kaz almost tries to follow her when she goes, but in realizing moments later where and why she moves, Kaz falls back again to lift his hips, to help get the pants off and removed. it's a little rushed, a little inelegant (there's only so much he can do, even when he leg feels alright), but they are still young. still stumbling through whatever this is supposed to be.
inej resettles and Kaz sits back up to meet her, meeting her push for push on the kiss, his hands back to her waist, reaching around her lower back to pull her closer. the words pull his attention from the more primal (heat, her, close, now) back to the higher functioning, and Kaz grins back against her lips. ]
I don't think I need to answer that.
[ because in the end, kaz brekker will always be a little shit. ]
[ His hands settle back on her waist and she feels a thrill, enjoying the weight of them. The wanted possessiveness. It's taken her a while to get used to that particular touch, having been handled in the Menagerie so often. But now she loves it, loves him. Knows if she asked, he'd take his hands away immediately. Knows he's always looking out for her, can see it now in the warm coffee of his gaze and his grin.
She huffs a laugh, smiling against his mouth. ]
No, I guess not. [ Inej presses another kiss to his lips and then another, each one stoking the heat under her skin. And then she's settling her center right against his cock, pushing her hips down. Her pulse skips and she lets out a shaky breath across his neck, repeating the motion and feeling a sticky rush dampen her underwear enough to make the cloth flimsy. ]
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Certainly, it has her soaking up the attention when he kisses her again, his hands pulling her shirt out from where it's been tucked and skimming his fingers across her skin. A noise of appreciation is muffled against his mouth and when he finally rolls his hips to hers, there's a low throbbing heat in her stomach.
Her own fingers slide to find the buttons on his shirt, undoing them and eagerly yanking the cloth up, one palm laying flat on his chest. She pulls away from the kiss long enough to give him a gentle nudge with said hand. ]
Bed, now. [ Her patience has frayed; no longer interested in pretending she can wait. ]
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she pushes him away and he tugs on her lips when they separate, not quite ready to lose this touch. to let this stop. her palm is flat against his chest and she can probably feel the speed his heart is moving, the erratic thumping against his ribcage.
bed, now she says, and there’s a fire under his skin. an electric current that courses out to every inch of him. he leans back, ignoring how the shifting weight makes his leg ache, and let’s out a breath - a sigh, not of relief but of acceptance. ]
You’ve grown impatient. [ it’s teasing, of course, his voice a low gravel as he slides his open vest and shirt off his shoulders and let’s them crumple to the floor, before reaching back towards her to grab at her waist, pulling her away from the windowsill and with him across the room. ]
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My hand and a pillow are poor replacements. [ Yes that means exactly what you think, Kaz. She only pauses her steps to pull her top off, dropping the garment on the floor to join his. A flick of her wrist and the binder she wears is undone, falling to her feet and leaving her just as bare as he is on top. Once she kicks her shoes off, she sidles in closer again, smoothing her hands down his sides greedily. Leaning up, she kisses his neck briefly, pulling away with a scrape of teeth. ]
If you say you aren't just the same, I'm calling you a liar.
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But I am a liar. And a thief. [ kaz's brow arches, still a bit playful in his good mood, as he reaches and pulls her closer to him, between his knees. he let's himself have another moment to take her in, the naked expanse of her before him, the soft warmth of her skin under his hands. there's still an inch to the back of his brain, then, a curling of emotion - but that is now want, hunger, desire. not the nauseating mixture of self-disgust he carried with him for years.
he presses a kiss to her collar bone, then another below, his hands running up her thighs. ] What did you think about, with your hand and a pillow? [ he looks up at her through dark lashes, setting another kiss below her collarbone and above her heart, then a third further down her chest. ]
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With that in mind, she steps between his legs without a second thought, liking the change of height. It's easier to study his face like this, catalogue the difference in the arch of his brow, how his eyes have gone dark—but not bitter. She makes a pleased little noise when he slides his hands up her legs, a shiver running its way up her spine.
Combing her fingers through his hair, she gently scratches down the back of his neck, nails pressing in just enough to leave quick fading depressions as she gets to his shoulders. Later, she thinks she'll leave a mark, something only she'll see. ]
I wanted to sit across your hips and have you take me. Or to wake you with my hand around your cock. [ That was the least of it. Her expression softens and she traces a finger along his collarbone. ] Mostly, how much I wanted to hold you.
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kaz wants her to mark him, but that isn't abnormal. especially with her schedule, he likes the reminders she did come back - whether for him, or the city, or anything else. ]
That could be arranged. [ a smirk, a look up through his eyelashes. catching his eyes, before kissing her chest again, and then down again, before wrapping around his mouth around the peak of her breast. ]
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Now though, she feels nothing but a thrill when Kaz's fingers tighten on her thighs. It's not enough to bruise, not yet, but the pressure is welcome. She's about to ask him to move them higher, to the vee of her legs, panties starting to go damp from so little touch after so long. He ducks his head though, all mischief when his mouth closes on her chest, and she forgets any words she'd been about to say. ]
Good boy. [ Is what comes out instead, syllables mixed in with a gasp. One hand settles at the back of his neck, as if to keep him there. The other drops down, nails gently scraping down his chest. ]
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before, there would have been nothing kaz could have given her in this moment. simply being near her had driven him insane, and now he honestly, truly, can't get enough of her.
he swirls his tongue around her, kissing and sucking at the peak he has in his mouth. at the good boy, kaz actually feels something like electricity shoot down his spine, just enough to have him dig his nails into the skin of her thigh. not too hard, not enough to mark, but to show intent. intent for something more. ]
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While enjoyable, it's not strictly fair. She wants more and she thinks the grip on her thighs tells the same story. The hand on his chest pushes again this time, aiming to get him back on the bed. She'll follow him onto it after she undoes her pants and pulls them down, haphazardly kicking them onto the floor. Clad only in her underwear, she settles across his lap, letting her warmth bleed through his trousers.
Leaning forward, she presses an affectionate kiss to his cheek. ]
Moving too slow. [ She says as she slides her hands down his front, fingers mapping out all his familiar sharp angles. One strays between his legs, her palm setting lightly enough to tease. ]
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inej’s hand presses to his chest, and kaz falls back with it. watching, as much as he can from this angle. and then as she climbs back across his lap and he resettles, just enough to shift the pressure off his bad leg, and he can feel her through the linen of his pants. ]
Impatient? [ he says with a chuckle, maybe a bit too confident, as his hands settle back on her waist. her palm settles teasingly against him, and kaz’s hips jerk towards her. ]
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His hands settle on her waist and she presses her palm down gently when his hips arch up, giving him what he wants. Well, for now. Though she can't deny feeling him hardening under her hand is a one sided pleasure. She moves said hand, shifting up to settle across his hips, making it easier for her to lean down to kiss his neck. ]
A little. [ Inej murmurs it, amused, against the hollow of his throat. She kisses a line down, soft presses of her mouth to his chest. With a slow roll of her hips, she mimics his earlier motion, letting out a satisfied sound. ]
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now, he can't get enough of it. now, he spends each moment he's forced to spend away from her, thinking of just this. he loves the warmth in how his hands settle on her lips, adores the simple weight of her over him, of her palm pressing down. kaz hisses, but it's through a small grin, as he leans his head back and lets her have free reign of his neck. he meets the slow roll of her hips, pushing them both up off the bed if only for the friction.
kaz needs more than this, they both know that, but he also knows how much inej enjoys slowly pulling that out of him. so instead of saying it, kaz instead lets go with one of his hands too, reaching down to run across her, putting his fingers to use. ]
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Of course, he distracts her with his own touch, clever fingers running across her skin. Inej sways towards the contact, eager for more. Her hips shift against him again, the jut of his erection pressing between her legs enough to be a tease. She shifts her weight enough to undo the front of his pants, tugging the waistband down his hips. ]
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instead, he wants quite the opposite. wants inej's hands across his chest, pulling a hiss from him as his back arches, up into her nails, her fingers on his chest. everywhere she touches is fire, a good fire, one he chases after where he can. ]
Inej... [ his voice is low, gravelly, heavy with want and impatient. with a dangerous crick of a tone. don't keep me waiting. she'll know he doesn't mean anything by it, it's been far too long since kaz any authority of inej, she pulls down the waistband of his pants and he lets out a laugh.
there's just enough time for him to reach up and press a palm to her, running his fingers between her legs. to lean forward and press his lips to her shoulder. he just wants to feel her, at this point, any way he can. ]
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Except it cracks in the next moment, his raspy laugh filling the space between them. The sound warms her from the inside out, knowing she's one of the few who's heard it, genuinely. And well, maybe his touch helps, clever fingers finding their way between her legs, mouth to her shoulder. She hums at both, though her hips push down just a bit, savoring the pressure.
Too bad she isn't one to get distracted from her goals, no matter how much she wants something in the moment. Though she makes it a brief departure as she tugs his pants down and off, wanting just as much as him to touch. When she resettles, she pulls him in for a deeper kiss, both of her palms pressed flat against his chest. ]
Can I help you? [ The words are murmured against his lips, the light and teasing tone discolored by how obvious her want is. ]
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inej is the stronger person here (in more ways than one) when she pulls them apart. kaz almost tries to follow her when she goes, but in realizing moments later where and why she moves, Kaz falls back again to lift his hips, to help get the pants off and removed. it's a little rushed, a little inelegant (there's only so much he can do, even when he leg feels alright), but they are still young. still stumbling through whatever this is supposed to be.
inej resettles and Kaz sits back up to meet her, meeting her push for push on the kiss, his hands back to her waist, reaching around her lower back to pull her closer. the words pull his attention from the more primal (heat, her, close, now) back to the higher functioning, and Kaz grins back against her lips. ]
I don't think I need to answer that.
[ because in the end, kaz brekker will always be a little shit. ]
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She huffs a laugh, smiling against his mouth. ]
No, I guess not. [ Inej presses another kiss to his lips and then another, each one stoking the heat under her skin. And then she's settling her center right against his cock, pushing her hips down. Her pulse skips and she lets out a shaky breath across his neck, repeating the motion and feeling a sticky rush dampen her underwear enough to make the cloth flimsy. ]